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Saturday, December 6, 2014

Jayadeva Jai Raja - the Barefoot DJ - Live Online NOW!

I have set up an online radio station!

Live set starts now!

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Monday, December 1, 2014

Wormsign

Where did my motivation go? Swallowed whole by some unseen vampire, sucking away my desires in small sips. So slowly I didn't even know they were being depleted. Then I wake up in the hospital, confused, little memory of how I got there. "You had a seizure." They tell me. The doctor of course wants to put me on meds of some sort. You have epilepsy. Really? And is normal to have no signs until one is 38 years old? No, it is not.b

In 2008 I was traveling Mexico with a friend. The next day after eating ceviche, said friend started experiencing facial swelling similar to an allergic reaction. We went to the doctor, and though my street Spanish is fairly decent, I had little understanding what the doctor was talking about or what he gave my friend. I had no symptoms and thought nothing of it. We travel on and then return home.

From 2009 to 2010 I took on a stressful job and began drinking too much and started smoking tobacco again. I get sick of the job and quit to go traveling in Costa Rica. Three months later (2011) I return to Long Beach, take the job back and start saving all my money to go to live at the Sivananda Ashram. Living at the ashram I was eating well with no booze, bud or tobacco. Bowel Movements are excellent, no cough, I am radiant. After finishing teacher training and work study I move into the guest house at my Mother and step-fathers' house. They are drinking themselves to death, the energy there is heavy. "It's ok," I tell myself, "you have much prana from your training, you can handle this."

Then comes Burning Man, new friends, and back into partying. I am collecting unemployment and have no rent or responsibilities. I am growing a garden. Then it starts again, too much drugs, too much drinking. Tobacco again?!?!? Damnit, she is a wicked mistress.

I must get back on path. I just don't feel like myself. Somewhere in 2010 I started experiencing the random facial swelling. Allergies to the crap food I have been eating. Too much raiding of my Mothers' pantry. Back to natural foods and the swelling doesn't return. Feeling pretty good but something is off. I know I need to cleanse. In fact an Ayurvedic practitioner friend even suggested the idea of parasites. I put off the cleanse and eat some ice cream.

2012 and I know I need to get back on track. What is wrong with me? It's so subtle I manage to ignore it. I do some more Yoga Teacher training and some art for our Burning Man camp. Still too much partying. That is why I am off. In hindsight, I am now sure there was even more to it. The poor lifestyle choices allowing the parasites to take hold.

Now queue the most insane year of my life, 2013. In February my mom's husband finally drinks himself to death. I take over his company and now the family is my responsibility. At first I like it. Motivation, new adventures... GO GO GO! However I burn out after about a year. I don't like working around industrial equipment and high voltage. I am miserable. I don't want this responsibility. I don't care enough about money to motivate anymore. Then to top it off on August 2nd, my best friend since we were 6 years old kills himself. End of September I have my first seizure.

Nothing shows up in the CAT Scan. I go in for an EEG. There is an "unusual spike", possibly epileptic, though not definitive. The whole thing could have been stress. I am advised to quit alcohol, tobacco and coffee. I cut down on all three, though didn't  quit. I did cut out all "party drugs" and kept my drinking in check when I went to Envision Festival. I get and still feel fine, though about a week later I have another episode. I am calling them episodes instead of just seizures as they begin with a few hours of me (according to reports) being in a fugue state and going crazy over what ever it is that is stressing me out at the moment ( in this case I was running through my house with a broom hitting things screaming "Where are the corners of my property?!?!?" then vomiting and a seizure. I insist not to be taken to the hospital.

I slowly recover over the next few days. My memory is foggy and I can't remember anyone's name save for my immediate family and oldest friends. I completely cut out any alcohol consumption. This makes me feel so much better I know I am on the track back to being healthy. I am still suffering from frustration and lack of motivation. I rest a lot and am lazy. Not like me at all. I hate leaving the house. Luckily my sister has moved home and is running the business. Things are OK, I am working hard to motivate myself and find the cause of all of this.

And then three months after the last episode, I have another. This one the worst of them all. I poop all over the place and somehow fall on something sharp and impale myself in the arm. My mom finds me coughing up blood and screaming her name. From the stories I hear I go crazy and am 5150ed buy the cops and life-flighted to the hospital. I awake tied to the bed with no memory of what happened. Eventually I am released and return home where I sleep for days. My apprentice in his worry begins researching. He tells me he found a story about a woman in New York having the same problems as me. Turns out she had a huge tapeworm. The book Back to Eden says many seizures are attributed to worms. I begin fervently researching parasite infection.

My findings are staggering. Numerous symptoms of parasite infection mirror the issues I have been having for the last few years. Headaches, facial swelling, unhealthy cravings, fatigue, personality changes, seizures, rashes and athlete's foot/jock itch were some of the random symptoms that I have been experiencing off and on for the last several years. Not only that, a common time for the life cycle of parasitic worms is three months. So far the three episodes I have had have been at three month intervals. Maybe I am not just getting old after all.

July 1, 2014 I start the parasite cleanse "ParaGone" purchased from Sunrise Foods, the local health food store. Reports from users state that I may feel flu like symptoms for a few days. I follow the low alkali diet recommended by the cleanse an take the capsules as directed. First day I feel a bit off. For the next seven days I feel awful. Just like the flu: fever, aches, fatigue, etc. This must be the die off reaction as I continue to follow the diet and take the herbs. On day two I pooped out a bunch of something that looked like rice. I have been told those were pinworms. Somewhere around day eight, a poop came out with about 3 inches of a white worm hanging out of it. The next day a started feeling better. By the end of the first round of deworming, I was starting to feel like my old self again.

Per the instructions I waited 5 days and did another cleanse. I changed brands to Para-Cleanse by Nature's Sunshine. This time I had no ill reactions to the herbs. On day 7 of 10 of this phase I did pass something that could have been more pinworms. At this point I am fairly convinced that my problems are attributed to parasites (which were able to take hold due to stress and an unhealthy lifestyle). I am sure my battle with these little demons is far from over. Today I started the Arise & Shine 28 day cleanse in hopes to get my body back to full potential.